I saw God today

Dear God,

Finally I could see You today. I was full of tears hoping for the best in my life, but never knew how blind I was never thought that you always around me. I finally understand all of the reasons behind what has been going on. I know life is not simple but I didn't realize that it would be too complex to be understood without You helping me.

Please God, pull me back to the root where I belong. Don't hold it back, just do it God and I will surender to the destiny that you've carved for me. Nothin in my life has been guaranteed and I know that I shouldn't try to change what you've drafted. But God, I will never stop hopping for your sincere, and please.. please.. show me your love once more. I do know You know what I meant, and I hope that would happen soon..

I know God, all I've said never in order, and I believe you also know the reason. I can not lie to my self God, this heart will never lie.. But the uncertainty that I always feel, treagered me did stupid things. Forgive me God, please turn the world again and save me. I desperately need that.. Thank you for always listening to my pray.. I was just too stupid to not knowing that. And I just realized it after I saw You today...
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I'm still feeling blue but I know I will survive..
I'm still in the bad mood but I know it's for a good reason..
I've made this happen and I can not just give it up but keep movin..
I hope for the best and I believe it will come..
I hope God will twist the condition.. I do hope that will happen.. soon enough...